You saw me on that day

when I was blazing  past by you
You tried yelling in my way
Still, I ran in my running shoes
Oh, believe me I heard
Your every  word
The effect you have on me
Is so baffling, it tests my sanity
Never mind I won’t look back
And meet hypnotizing eyes
Never mind I won’t waste time
Keep on running’, I’m on a high
No time to lose,
No heart to break.
No soul to bruise,
No love to make.
Over the mountains 
Through the valleys
Under the oceans
Nothing can stop me
From running free
Amongst the trees
Against the breeze
This is meant to be 



From the moment I first saw you
You already had set me on fire
With that slow smile of yours
You made me burn with desire
I’m feeling something warm inside
I hoped there is nothing wrong
 somehow you creeped into my dreams
I am waking up turned on
I’ve caught myself fantasizing
Some of it so forbidden
My solid ship is capsizing
Images of you came up unbidden
Do you not understand 
You’re in every face I see
Why can’t I understand 
The effect you have on me?
I am just bad news
For the goody two shoes
I am far too addictive
For even you, too
I don’t want to ruin you
You would get weak
I am always on fire
Every day of the week

A million shades

A million shades

Don’t try so hard 

Trying to figure me out
I’m a million shades, baby
There is no telling what I’m about
Just take in the time
You have spent with me
Appreciate what ever we got
Tomorrow is never a guarantee 
Make the memories 
The way its supposed to be
The way we want it to be
The way you wanna remember me
Whether you are my love, a friend,
An ex, or my enemy
Either way you want to see it
We have had some history
Whether it be bad, good,
Or straight up damned awkward
You know I always kept it real
And moved nowhere but forward
So don’t try so hard
Trying to figure me out
I am a million shades, baby
There is no telling what I am about
I have dents and I hide scars
I don’t have a filter when I talk
I like football and old fast cars
Confidence so obvious in my walk
I love bad boys, that I cannot deny
The goody two shoes can’t handle me
I have an arrest record as long as my arm
Hey, what can I say? They drove me crazy!
I’m a million shades
And I am not ashamed
I’m a million shades
And I’ll never be tamed
I’m not always bad, you see
I am a mom, a poet, and many more
I have nine tattoos, each with a story
I am somebody you never met before
Don’t try so hard
Trying to figure me out
I’m a million shades, baby
No telling what I’m about 


Forever Forget Your Name

you are…

a thought i shouldn’t be thinking

a face i shouldn’t be seeing

a memory i shouldn’t be remembering

you are a drug i shouldn’t be needing

an old habit that never dies

You sit in the back of my head

As hard as I can to try to deny

The memories won’t stay dead

It’s annoying, you’re distracting

Stay out of my head, stop the game

Got me twisted, I’m left backtracking

I just wanna forever forget your name

Forever forget your name

I wanna, wanna, wanna

Forever forget your name

Wanna see you someday pass me by

And I would not even recognize 

Even if you stopped and said ‘Hi’

I’d be walking away with a ‘good-bye’

I just wanna forever forget your name

you are the thought i shouldn’t be thinking

you are the  face i shouldn’t be seeing

you are the memory i shouldn’t be remembering

you are the drug i shouldn’t be needing

You’re something I shouldn’t be wanting


If I could turn back the time (rewind)
Back to when I wasn’t broken in my mind
there would be so much I’d change for me
So many days I would spend differently
Lovers I had would never had happened
And I would never have had any children
Oh if i could truly rewind back the time
Would I still walk away a better woman?
I’m tired of having to fix it all
Then have it fail on me and fall
I am filled with heavy regrets
That I try (and try) to forget
All that I had left behind lost
Over just an idea of love
i know now it’s a fantasy
Just a little girl’s ridiculous dream
Give me nightmares every night
for it is closer to being true
than love and happiness
Rewind, back to the times
Of careless days, to easier ways
To when I was free to be me
Send me back to when I was 18


The day is approaching fast
I’m buckled in for the ride
To Hell with the shady past
I’m now with open eyes

I refuse
To Lose

Invincible soul
Wading in pools of acid
Nowhere to go
Up against the rancid 

Without chains
I’ll say it again
Never give in

Break my bones
For I shall heal
No comfort zone
In being real

I refuse
To Lose!

Tell Me Now, Does It Hurt?

Let me rip out your heart
hide your children, crash your prized car
and burn up your favorite shirt
Tell me now, does it hurt?
Does your eyes itch with an urge to cry?
Deep inside, do you feel that knife?
Let me tear up your family picture
Sell you lies leaving you unsure
Haunt you to keep you alert
Tell me now, does it hurt?
Do you feel your soul breaking down?
Do you want to just lay on the ground?
Let me show you Love then show you Hate
Show you the happy then show you the pain
There are no breaks, no ways for you to avert
Tell me now, does it f*cking hurt?