Forever Forget Your Name

you are…

a thought i shouldn’t be thinking

a face i shouldn’t be seeing

a memory i shouldn’t be remembering

you are a drug i shouldn’t be needing

an old habit that never dies

You sit in the back of my head

As hard as I can to try to deny

The memories won’t stay dead

It’s annoying, you’re distracting

Stay out of my head, stop the game

Got me twisted, I’m left backtracking

I just wanna forever forget your name

Forever forget your name

I wanna, wanna, wanna

Forever forget your name

Wanna see you someday pass me by

And I would not even recognize 

Even if you stopped and said ‘Hi’

I’d be walking away with a ‘good-bye’

I just wanna forever forget your name

you are the thought i shouldn’t be thinking

you are the  face i shouldn’t be seeing

you are the memory i shouldn’t be remembering

you are the drug i shouldn’t be needing

You’re something I shouldn’t be wanting

REWIND

If I could turn back the time (rewind)
Back to when I wasn’t broken in my mind
there would be so much I’d change for me
So many days I would spend differently
Lovers I had would never had happened
And I would never have had any children
Oh if i could truly rewind back the time
Would I still walk away a better woman?
I’m tired of having to fix it all
Then have it fail on me and fall
I am filled with heavy regrets
That I try (and try) to forget
All that I had left behind lost
Over just an idea of love
i know now it’s a fantasy
Just a little girl’s ridiculous dream
Give me nightmares every night
for it is closer to being true
than love and happiness
Rewind, back to the times
Of careless days, to easier ways
To when I was free to be me
Send me back to when I was 18

RENEWED

The day is approaching fast
I’m buckled in for the ride
To Hell with the shady past
I’m now with open eyes

Renewed
I refuse
To Lose

Invincible soul
Wading in pools of acid
Nowhere to go
Up against the rancid 

Without chains
I’ll say it again
Never give in

Break my bones
For I shall heal
No comfort zone
In being real

Renewed
I refuse
To Lose!

Tell Me Now, Does It Hurt?

Let me rip out your heart
hide your children, crash your prized car
and burn up your favorite shirt
Tell me now, does it hurt?
Does your eyes itch with an urge to cry?
Deep inside, do you feel that knife?
Let me tear up your family picture
Sell you lies leaving you unsure
Haunt you to keep you alert
Tell me now, does it hurt?
Do you feel your soul breaking down?
Do you want to just lay on the ground?
Let me show you Love then show you Hate
Show you the happy then show you the pain
There are no breaks, no ways for you to avert
Tell me now, does it f*cking hurt?

Self Empowerment

my faith unwaver even when the tide rise
I fight hard to keep the hope within alive
to burn and blaze, set me alight on fire
Help fuel my soul to get all that I desire
And the world will then know my name
They will know my face from the fame
I’m a simple woman with simple needs
All of my children are part of my legacy
They hold all the strings to my heart
Cut one off, I will nearly fall apart
“I love you, mommy” are my favorite words
Each and every one are my whole world
My son, my daughters makes me a mother
My faith, hope and love makes me stronger
My man makes me feel like a woman
Together, my family makes me feel I can
Face, overcome, and conquer all
I may get weak but never will I fall
-4.11.13